Now that there is this fleeting idea in the back of my mind that we really, truly might not be able to have kids, (even more so a negative possibility), I’ve been thinking more and more about how I really think it’d be nice to have some children of our own.
Is it because I want what I can’t have?
Yesterday I had to pick up glasses. They’re just for nighttime driving and the occasional meeting where they project their presentation on the board far away. See there I go again justifying why I had to get them… trying to make it seem like I don’t really need them all that badly. Truth is… I put them on last night to watch some television with my husband and it was crazy how different it was.. everything was fine-tuned. More precision and clarity came into focus! Who knew!
Now, my husband, he’s had glasses since before I even met him and I think he looks good in them. But I’m still hesitant… like something visible is now wrong with me. Up until now nobody can see what’s “wrong” with me… that I had two uteruses, have diabetes… endometriosis…
If we have children now… Will they need glasses immediately? What if they need those baby goggle-type glasses? Will they be okay with putting in their own contacts? Would they want lasik eye surgery?